Twisted Mix Tape: Spinning in an Ethereal Slow Dance

Written by Emily

My Skewed View

I had spent days in smelly dorm rooms flipping through cd jackets and scrolling playlists on desktop computers. The burned cd had to be just right because it was the gift after all, the only gift I could afford after spending what must have been my food money for the week on a 3.5 hour bus ticket. There was so much riding on that one shiny disc with a handmade cover–a collage of romantic images like two children holding hands in the rain wearing Gorton’s fishermen rain slickers because what’s more romantic than that? Nothing. The music though, it had to be perfect; it had to tell the story of our entire relationship and convey just the right sentiment for this Valentine’s Day weekend and the biggest surprise I’d ever planned. No pressure.

I closed the lid to my awesome discman, watched the cd spin and listened to the finished product for at least 3 of the 3.5 hour trip while I planned the weekend in my head and fell in love with love.

Outside the bus station, I used the following week’s food money on a cab. I arrived at the residence tower with too much product in my hair, a slew of pimples on my forehead, and  a song mix in my backpack that would no-doubt change the very course of my life. This was not the time to down play the drama.

A few years later, I married that boy from the residence tower. It was the cd. I’m sure of it.

Fade Into You, Mazzy Star

That’s right. Mazzy Star. Fade into You. I first heard this song in the movie Angus, one of the best Friday night movies my dad ever chose. I fell in love with underdogs everywhere and with this song that sent me spinning in an ethereal slow dance every time I heard it.

Sweetest Thing, U2

“A blue-eyed boy meets a brown-eyed girl”…when a song is probably written with you in mind, you have to put it on a cd. You know, like brown-eyed girls leaping onto dance floors and singing Van Morrison’s song to each other while they point and bounce. Because they’re singing their song, theirs, the one dedicated to them from someone somewhere…maybe just in their heads, but real. And the Sweet Carolines, too. Same thing.

At My Most Beautiful, REM

My man loved REM, so I loved REM. “I’ll count your eyelashes” (but not in a creepy way.)

Crash into Me, DMB

I never rode the DMB bandwagon, but I danced next to it a few times. This song found its way onto more than one burned cd that I kept on the pleather bench seat of my rusty blue pick-up. So naturally it made it onto a cd for my boo.

Just imagine. There are 12 more songs like those on the mix. I know. You’re sorry I’m taken because you feel like you’re drowning in a sea of romance, and you desperately want my digits. It’s the cd. I’m sure of it.


Thank you, Jen Kehl, for another Twisted Mix Tape that has me dancing down memory lane.

10 comments for “Twisted Mix Tape: Spinning in an Ethereal Slow Dance

  1. February 11, 2014 at 1:53 pm

    I love these songs. You really are fearsome when you focus down!! LOL

    • February 11, 2014 at 1:56 pm

      Thanks so much, Brenda! And yes, yes I am fearsome when I focus…sometimes to a fault! I hope you’re well! Thanks so much for stopping by. I missed you 🙂

      • February 11, 2014 at 2:13 pm

        I keep missing your posts in my reader and I have not found a good way to earmark sites to visit aside from the reader. I saw your post, and thought, yeah!

  2. February 11, 2014 at 2:45 pm

    Seriously, I made it through like 28 seconds of each song before I bailed. I’m so glad you got the boy, and I’m positive that he only married you so that he never had to sit through any of that again!
    Okay. I’m sure he married you for other reasons, too.

    • February 11, 2014 at 2:48 pm

      Hahahahahaha! In retrospect, I have no idea what would have made him fall for me because, generally, I was a mess 😉

  3. Jen
    February 11, 2014 at 10:34 pm

    Oh yea! I love this story. i don’t know if I ever made my husband a mixtape. Everything happened so fast with him. I was more a break-up tape maker.
    This is really beautiful and perfect, thank you so much for sharing it with us!

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  5. February 12, 2014 at 7:33 am

    A perfect mix that says it all so well!

  6. February 13, 2014 at 6:18 pm

    That is a great mix. You had me as soon as I saw the Mazzy Star. I am semi embarrassed and semi proud to say that I first discovered that song on an episode of “Gilmore Girls.”
    The U2 song is also one I quite like.

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